Tuesday, March 24, 2009

ako'y nagbabalik

hay grabe after a long hiatus.. i'm back to blogging...

pfft... sorry if i wasn't able to blog or i-buhay lang man ung blog ko hehe...

kasi March is really my Busy month... swear..

grabe 2nd semester was really a freaking hell week for me, grabe we had to finish our Thesis, patong patong ang exams.. argh! basta grabe ang dami!! SUPER BRAIN OVERLOAD NA AKO NGAUN! GRR!

and then i had to go to bulacan for vacation kasi i had to take care of my grandmother who was just discharged from the hospital nung thursday, grabe i'm extremely sad because she has a Nasogastric tube due to that hindi siya makakain, Oxygen because of her breathing patterns, sabay May Nebulizer pa siya for the pneumonia daw plus Insulin pa kasi my lola is diagnosed also with type 2 diabetes meaning she is insulin dependent so kailangan niya ng insulin talaga...

hayy grabe so tired... and vacation is so BORING kasi 2 weeks na nga bakasyon mo parang hindi bakasyon kasi nag-rerevise parin kami ng Thesis namin nu ba yan!

pati Syota ko napapabyaan ko na! i miss my by... Buwist sabi magtetext daw nung nasa bulacan ako hindi naman nagPARAMDAM!! AMPFT!
phone ko pa nawala!
grr!!!

hate this month!

Monday, March 2, 2009

revalida!

so ever natapos ang revalida namin earlier...


hay the moment i heard about the revalida thingy i was freakiiinng nervous!
paano ba naman 23 procedures ang kailangan mong aralin and then out of the 23 procedures mga 2 lang ang bubunutin mo..

and then knina nga was my Skills Inventory exam hindi pala revalida pero same din ata sila so ayun nga it was also my final exams narin so ayun nga

ito ang list of procedures na

  1. Leopold's Maneuver
  2. Perineal Prep.
  3. Newborn Care
  4. Suctioning
  5. Gloving (Open)
  6. Gloving (Closed Method)
  7. Surgical Scrubbing
  8. Gowning and Serving
  9. Surgical Instrumentation
  10. Catheterization (M/F) Straight or Indwelling Foley Cathether
  11. Enema
  12. Oxygen Administration
  13. Gastric Gavage
  14. Gastric Lavage
  15. Blood Transfusion
  16. IV Therapy (Preparation, Regulating, Termination)
  17. Colostomy/ Ileostomy
  18. Vaginal/Rectal Suppositories
  19. Spirometry
  20. Nebulization
  21. CBG Monitoring
  22. Insulin Administration
  23. PEG Feeding

And then so i arrived at school with no signs of restlessness or hesitation..

basta parang wala lang ung expression ko kanina so ayun.... uhmmm Maam Antoni called in the first group...

ang bilis knina grabe parang Return Demo lang nga e...

so ayun uhmm tinawagan na ako, me and irah pala ang tinawagan they need two daw ata... so ayun

pagpunta ko sa nurses station-kuno at front were two canisters anda then sa loob nun are envelope's containing the NCM-101 AND 102 topics to be performed, so i mixed it up a bit, and then BUNOT na sabay ko ata binunot ung envelopes hoping that i won't pick BT, or IV Therapy..

and then once i opened the envelope's i picked out came Perineal Prep. and Colostomy... and then my initial reaction was? "Yes!!! Colostomy!!" siyempre all smiles ako kasi un ang pinagaralan ko the othe night pa haha!

so moving on i stepped in the parang cubicle for my exam... and then ayun performed Colostomy first bago Perineal Prep.

so pagkalabas ko ng Colostomy cubicle i headed straight to the submission of checklist para makita ko ung grade ko... which turned out to be 98% i was shocked din... pati si maam carreon kasi she was my MCN prof., so after that siyempre i was congratulated din by maam longanilla the head of the Health-Tower.. or RLE Coordinator

and then i headed for the waiting area para sa Perineal Prep. nag break daw ung Evaluator

this was the easiest out of all the procedures BUT, this was the one were i had the lowest grade haha! pero i got 84% haha! so alam kong may mali ako at first at natatawa talaga ako sa ginawa ko dun.. kasi may NaCL din (Sodium Chloride) and then iniisp ko para saan kaya ung sodium cholride dun... and then iniisip ko it's for flushing the vagina kaso mali parin ako haha! kasi nilagay ko siya sa basin which is meant for washing your hands only haha!, and then i offered the bedpan wrong, and then my strokes for the cleaning wasn't good enough daw pero it's correct kaso mali lang ung pagstroke ko, and then worst of all NAG HUGAS AKO NG VAGINA WALA AKONG SUOT NA GLOVES! haha! nagtawanan galore kami ng Evaluator ko...

pero when i performed it okay naman daw kaya 84% and then my final Exam grade was 91.08 yipee!! so happy!


goodnight y'all i'm out!

Monday, February 23, 2009

I wonder...

I wonder why I force myself to be in a complicated situation...
I wonder why do I surround myself into a nameless crowd, but the only people I know still see me as a unforeseen shadow...
I wonder why I become so lame that I find myself looking for unrealistic truth...
I wonder if i push myself too hard...
I wonder if i try to become someone...
I wonder if Creating a new Me changes me...
I wonder if the ex's that break my heart, make me mend myself back into reality...
I wonder if i can balance the meaning of being a dreamer and a realist...
I wonder if...


I wonder is what always comes into my mind...
It's an everyday puzzle that makes me figure out if I do challenge myself to be more me, to be more realistic, strong and compassionate about the world I lay my feet in....
It's actually a long list of I wonder's...
I just selected the kinda important ones...
The ones I know that can give me results which can give me a big smack in the head...

I also wonder if being GAY is one of the things that make me puzzled bout my life...
It still hasn't sink in being a BISEXUAL/GAY man... pero i do act like one but is it really meant for me...

Argh! I'm still confused with the meaning of FINDING REALITY!
It's like already there in front of me pero still perplexed and then it's still feels complicated much that I can't grab the true meaning of reality...


I need a teacher...
I need a Mentor...
I need God...
I need someone to teach me some things i don't know about....


I NEED TO REDEEM MYSELF FROM THIS DRAMA!
I NEED TO WAKE UP!

Slumdog Millionaire wins eight Academy Awards including Best Picture.

Upon watching the much awaited 81st Academy Awards...

All that i can say is that the Oscars really amazed me this year,
ang ganda ng ibang presentations nila especially the set and all pero what bores me lang is how they present the Awards...

and what brought me to shock was Hugh jackman Singing well we all know he sings everysince his singing stint in "Happy Feet", pero it surpassed naman hehe! he does sing good especially in the medley pero hindi siya pede pang hip-hop dancer haha! evenr thoug he danced good...

pero it is a spectacular event except for the FASHION ALERTS!

i mean maganda din ang mga suot nila pero there are other dresses that are lame and all ung iba naman we're good pero napasobra sa design and texture ng damit, pero outstanding parin sa akin si Brangelina! i swear all hail the king and queen of the event!

hay anyways i got this review from the net about the event
From Associated Press

'Slumdog' rules Oscars with 8 prizes including Best Picture
Sunday, February 22, 2009 9:25:00 PM PT, Associated Press



LOS ANGELES – "Slumdog Millionaire" took the best-picture Academy Award and seven other Oscars on Sunday, including director for Danny Boyle, whose ghetto-to-glory story paralleled the film's unlikely rise to Hollywood's summit.

The other top winners: Kate Winslet, best actress for the Holocaust-themed drama "The Reader"; Sean Penn, best actor for the title role of "Milk"; Heath Ledger, supporting actor for "The Dark Knight"; and Penelope Cruz, supporting actress for "Vicky Cristina Barcelona."

A story of hope amid squalor in Mumbai, India, "Slumdog Millionaire" came in with 10 nominations, its eight wins including adapted screenplay, cinematography, editing and both music Oscars (score and song).

"Just to say to Mumbai, all of you who helped us make the film and all of those of you who didn't, thank you very much. You dwarf even this guy," Boyle said, holding up his directing Oscar.

The filmmakers accepted the best-picture trophy surrounded by both the adult professional actors who appeared among the cast of relative unknowns and some of the children Boyle cast from the slums of Mumbai.

The film follows the travails and triumphs of Jamal, an orphan who artfully dodges a criminal gang that mutilates children to make them more pitiable beggars. Jamal witnesses his mother's violent death, endures police torture and struggles with betrayal by his brother, while single-mindedly hoping to reunite with the lost love of his childhood.

Fate rewards Jamal, whose story unfolds through flashbacks as he recalls how he came to know the answers that made him a champion on India's version of "Who Wants to Be a Millionaire."

As he took the stage to accept his prize for playing slain gay-rights pioneer Harvey Milk, Penn gleefully told the crowd: "You commie, homo-loving sons of guns."

He followed with condemnation of anti-gay protesters who demonstrated near the Oscar site and comments about California's recent vote to ban gay marriage.

"For those who saw the signs of hatred as our cars drove in tonight, I think it's a good time for those who voted for the ban against gay marriage to sit and reflect on their great shame and their shame in their grandchildren's eyes if they continue that support," Penn said. "We've got to have equal rights for everyone."

For his demented reinvention of Batman villain the Joker, Ledger became only the second actor ever to win posthumously, his triumph coming exactly 13 months after his death from an accidental overdose of prescription drugs.

His Oscar for the Warner Bros. blockbuster was accepted by Ledger's parents and sister on behalf of the actor's 3-year-old daughter, Matilda.

"I have to say this is ever so humbling, just being amongst such wonderful people in such a wonderful industry," said his father, Kim Ledger. "We'd like to thank the academy for recognizing our son's amazing work, Warner Bros., and Christopher Nolan in particular for allowing Heath the creative license to develop and explore this crazy Joker character."

Since his death, the 28-year-old Ledger has gained a mythic aura akin to James Dean, another rising star who died well before his time.

The Joker was his final completed role, a casting choice that initially drew scorn from fans who thought Ledger would not be up to the task given Jack Nicholson's gleefully campy rendition of the character in 1989's "Batman."

In the months before Ledger's death, buzz on his wickedly chaotic performance swelled as marketing for the movie centered on the Joker and the perverted clown makeup he hid behind.

Ledger's death fanned a frenzy of anticipation for "The Dark Knight," which had a record $158.4 million opening weekend last summer.

The previous posthumous Oscar recipient was Peter Finch, who won best actor for 1976's "Network" two months after his death.

Cruz triumphed as a woman in a steamy three-way affair with her ex-husband and an American woman in Woody Allen's romance.

"Has anybody ever fainted here? Because I might be the first one," Cruz said, who went on with warm thanks to Allen. "Thank you, Woody, for trusting me with this beautiful character. Thank you for having written all these years some of the greatest characters for women."

"OK, that fainting thing, Penelope," Winslet joked later as she accepted her best-actress prize for "The Reader," in which she plays a former concentration camp guard in an affair with a teen. "I'd be lying if I haven't made a version of this speech before. I think I was probably 8 years old and staring into the bathroom mirror, and this would be a shampoo bottle. But it's not a shampoo bottle now."

It was Winslet's first win after five previous losses.

"Slumdog" writer Simon Beaufoy, who adapted the script from Vikas Swarup's novel "Q&A," said there are places he never could imagine being.

"For me, it's the moon, the South Pole, the Miss World podium, and here," Beaufoy said.

The epic love story "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," which led with 13 nominations, had three wins, for visual effects, art direction and makeup.

"The Dark Knight" had a second win, for sound editing.

"Milk" writer Dustin Lance Black offered an impassioned tribute to Milk.

"If Harvey had not been taken from us 30 years ago, I think he would want me to say to all the gay and lesbian kids out there tonight who have been told they are less than by the churches, by the government, by their families, that you are beautiful, wonderful creatures of value, and that no matter what anyone tells you, God does love you and that very soon, I promise you, you will have equal rights, federally, across this great nation of ours," Black said.

"Man on Wire," James Marsh's examination of tight-rope walker Philippe Petit's dazzling stroll between the towers of the World Trade Center in 1974, was chosen as best documentary.

The acting categories were presented by five past winners of the same awards, among them last year's actress winners, Marion Cotillard and Tilda Swinton, plus Halle Berry, Nicole Kidman, Kevin Kline, Sophia Loren, Anthony Hopkins, Shirley MacLaine and Robert De Niro.

It was a much different style for the Oscars as each past recipient offered personal tributes to one of the nominees, without clips of the nominated performances. Awards usually are done in chit-chat style between a couple of celebrity presenters.

After last year's Oscars delivered their worst TV ratings ever, producers this time aimed to liven up the show with some surprises and new ways of presenting awards. Rather than hiring a comedian such as past hosts Jon Stewart or Chris Rock, the producers went with actor and song-and-dance man Hugh Jackman, who has been host of Broadway's Tony Awards.

Instead of the usual standup routine, Jackman did an engaging musical number to open the show, saluting nominated films with a clever tribute.

Jackman later did a medley staged by his "Australia" director Baz Luhrmann with such performers as Beyonce Knowles and "High School Musical" stars Vanessa Hudgens and Zac Efron.

"Slumdog Millionaire" went into the evening after a run of prizes from earlier film honors.

The film nearly got lost in the shuffle as Warner Bros. folded its art-house banner, Warner Independent, which had been slated to distribute "Slumdog Millionaire." It was rescued from the direct-to-video scrap heap when Fox Searchlight stepped in to release the film.

"Slumdog" composer A.R. Rahman, a dual Oscar winner for the score and song, said the movie was about "optimism and the power of hope."

"All my life, I've had a choice of hate and love," Rahman said. "I chose love, and I'm here.



I really applaud the film-makers of today for their outstanding pieces...
well even though my predicted winners didn't won..pero i'm still happy that the unexpected winners we're the Gold Stars of the evening..

Congratulations to:


Best Picture - Slumdog Millionaire - i knew it that they were going to win...
Best Foreign Film - Depatures (Japan)

Best Documentary Film - Man on the Wire



Best Animated Film - WALL-E - hihi i knew it too ang ganda din ksi ng movie


Best Directory - Danny Boyle


Best Actor - Sean Penn - who also delivered a wonderful speech bout the Prop 8. and was an emotional win


Best Actress - Kate Winslet - even though my bet was Meryl Streep it's okay narin hihi


Best Actor in a Supporting role - Heath Ledger - OMG! this led me to tears i mean it was also an emotional win for Heath, if he was there it would really be a Standing ovation..


Best Actress in a Supporting Role - Penelope Cruz - haha! i loved her speech..



Best Writing - Original Screenplay - Dustin Lance Black (Milk)


Best Writing - Adaptating Screenplay - Simon Beaufoy (Slumdog Millionaire)


Jean Hersolt Award - Jerry Lewis

ang daming awards pero i'll give you the link of The list of Nominees and Winners


Anyways Hands-Down to Slumdog Millionaire for winning 8 awards
Well the story itself speaks for the Film and even though i haven't watched it yet it may be on of the Best Pictures the Academy has seen Congratulations to you and to the winners of the event


cheerio lads!
xoxo

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anyways So siguro if some of you viewed my last blog here...

About the Landscape Shots..

ayun nga so i just opened my deviantART account after my one year no activity haha! i've decided to include my newly edited photos to my site.. so ayun nga and then i saw a bold faced message saying that i have 23? messages

and when i opened them uhmm there some few messages bout some contests in deviantART siguro mga 6 lang haha! and then i recieved some comments siguro 2 lang haha! and liked my art haha!

and then when i went down siguro uhm i checked my activity messages ang nakalagay dun is that 11 deviantART members added my photos to there favorites i was liked shocked ksi hindi naman ganun kaganda ung mga ibang photos ko dun hehe... pero i was happy din kasi people appreciated my work... so i'm GREATLY INSPIRED RIGHT NOW! to continue my work

hay godbless you all :)


Sunday, February 22, 2009

Landscape Shots...

What i was doing for the past 2 hours or so...

Credits to Picnik.com for giving me good results sa mga edits ko hihi

Feeling Photog. na ako haha!






Photography is... a reality so subtle that it becomes more real than reality-- Alfred Stieglitz


do enjoy...

Paano kaya iniimport ang ibang photos from Multiply to Blogspot hmm?

Anyways cherrio lads!
xoxo

Remembering my Past... STUPID ACTIONS rather...

Ayun third blog of the day and i've remembered something na pinadala ng EX ko before...

Email bout Some Stupid THING i was suppose to be doing..

Yeah it's about Suicide *how sadistic i must be these days...

anyways siyempre i always think my actions pero it's a good thing i didn't initiate any dumb-ass thing...

pero here is what the email speaks:

Subject: SUICIDE GUIDELINES

> :) Mga Dapat Tandaan Bago Mag-suicide:

Bago ang lahat, alamin muna ang tamang dahilan ng pagsu-sucide..

Kung ang problema mo ay dahil lang sa iniwan ka ng minamahal mo, di k dapat

magpatiwakal! Hello?! Ang mundo ay tambak ng mga tao na pwede mong

mahalin kya di ka dpat mwalan ng pagasa.

Ngunit kung desidido ka na sa gagawin mo at sa tingin mo ay meron

kng tamang dahilan pra gawin ito, ang sunod mong gagawin ay ang pagpili ng

paraan nito. Ang mga popular na paraan ay ang pagbigti, paginom ng

lason, paglaslas, pagbaril sa sarili at pagpigil ng hininga.

(Note: 1. tandaan na maari k png mabuhay pag nagkamali ka sa

pagsasagawa ng mga nabanggit, kaya pumili lamang ng isa na hiyang sau.)

(Note: 2. Alalahaning dyahe kung pagtitinginan ng mga tao ang mukha mo sa ataul na muka kng dehydrated na langaw.)

Sumulat ng suicide note. Eto ang exciting! dito mo pedeng sisihin lahat ng tao, at wla clang magagawa! Sbhin mo na di mo gus2ng tapusin ang iyong buhay kaso lng badtrip clang lahat! Pero wag ding kalimutang humingi ng tawad sa bandang huli pra mas cool.

(Note: Tandaan n importanteng gumawa ng suicide note pra malaman ng tao na ngsuicide k at hndi na-murder! Sa ganitong paraan maiiwasan ng PNP ang pagkuha sa kalye ng kahit sinong tambay pra gawing suspect.)

Pumili ng themesong. Banggitin ang iyong special request sa suicide note at ibilin na patugtugin sa libing.

(Note: Iwasan ang mga kanta ng Salbakutah! Jologs!! Dapat mejo mellow at meaningful.. para gayahin ng iba!)

Isulat ng maayos ang suicide note. Print. Iwasan ang bura. Lagdaan.

(Note: Ilagay ang suicide note sa lugar kung saan madaling makita. Idikit sa noo!)

Planuhin ang isusuot. Isang beses k lng mamatay kaya dpat memorable ang get-up. Pumili ng telang di umuurong o makati sa katawan.

Magpareserve ng de-kalidad n kabaong. Maganda ang kulay n puti, mukang komportable. Huwag magtipid.

Pumili narin ng magandang pwesto sa sementeryo.

Pumili ng di masikip.

(Note: Kung ikw ay nabibilang sa Year of the rat, Dragon, rabbit, tiger, beef or monster. Wag na mamili ng lilibingan sapagkat ang mga

nabibilang sa taon n e2 ay dpat i-cremate at gawing foot powder,, pra gumaan ang pasok ng pera sa mga naiwan.)

Itaon ang araw ng iyong pagsu-suicide sa ung fav. no. sa calendar pra masaya!

Kung naplano mo na lhat-lhat, Magisip ng mabuti at paulit-ulit! Isipin na ang gagawin mo ay hndi kanais-nais at lubhang makasalanan! Pero pag desidido ka talaga...

Good luck! @ tsaka paparty ka na rin muna before ka magpatiwakal ng me maganda ka ring memory na iiwan sa mga friends and family mo. gawin mo nang bongga ; wag kuripot. make sure na me mga cute na bisita para sa mga single friends mo, ng me nagawa ka namang kapakipakinabang before ka nadedo. at least pag me nagkatuluyan maalala ka nila, like ay oo, si ano - we met the day before sya nagsuicide. bongga yung party nun!

Mag invite ka ng bands - ay nako, kung me balak ka mag suicide, mag ipon ka na. im sure mahal na talent fee ng Hale kung gusto mo cla tugtog The Day You Said Goodnyt sa burol mo.

And oo, make sure ding masarap ang kape sa burol a! tsaka pwe de wag na tetra pack na juice? pwede punch na lang? tapos ano, wag na bicuit-biscuit lang, gawin mo ref cake. masarap yun. better yet, blueberry cheesecake! tapos, tuna carbonara, nachos and garlic dip, pizza, chicken, ano pa? don't forget the drinks! mahaba-habng inuman to! gawin mo parang fiesta, one of a kind!

Eto, suggestion, lagyan mo ng theme - pwedeng horror, o fantasy - imagine naka costume mga pupunta sa burol mo? bongga di ba!?

o ano, excited ka na?


hmm? ready ka na? go lang...